Personal blog - and temporary home page until new website is finished - of writer, editor and graphic artist Christopher Mills

Monday, February 18, 2008

Monday Night Blues

It's about a quarter to midnight. Normally, this would be the time when I would really be just starting to get to work. But I'm not feeling well, and I'm kinda low, so I think I'm going to go to bed soon.

I've got a bit of a stomach ache, my sciatica's acting up, and I'm feeling crappy about a writing gig that after almost a year of struggling with, I've finally had to give up on. It was just a short story for an anthology, but with all that was going on last year, I got a very late start on it. Then, about halfway through... it stalled. I lost my way. I just couldn't get another paragraph out.

I took a break, and tried to come back to it fresh, but no soap. I did it again, and nada. Finally, the ultimate, drop-dead deadline came around, and I gave it another, full-bore assault... and just couldn't get it jump started. I don't know why. I'm just blocked on this particular damned story.

I've had a lot of short stories stall out in the past, and I simply abandoned them. On a very few occasions, I was able to revisit them a long time later, and BAM! I was able to break through the wall and take 'em home. But this is the first time it's happened on a story I was commissioned to write, and I feel awful about it – especially since I was really excited about being part of this particular anthology.


I think I'm going to bed. "See you" tomorrow.


Charles Gramlich said...

I've been having some weird tingles and crap in my legs that's making it hard to sit and write, so I can sympathize. Sometimes things just stall. Hopefully tomorrow (today) is going better.

Craig Zablo said...


I truly feel for you, brother. Especially since it was a paying gig...

Hang in there. You've been through it before.



vidsaw said...

Very sorry to hear about that.
Hang in there man, you still look like you've got a great year coming up!